<style> cal-border { border: 1px solid #ffffff; } .tblog-all-border{ border-top: 9px solid #666666; border-right: 9px solid #666666; border-bottom: 9px solid #666666; border-left: 9px solid #666666; background: silver; } .tblog-side-border{ border-right: 9px solid #666666; border-bottom: 9px solid #666666; border-left: 9px solid #666666; background: #EEEEEE; } .tblog-side-nav-links{ font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; color: #000000; width: 135px; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-bottom-style: solid; border-left-style: none; border-bottom-color: #000000; text-decoration: none; padding: 3px; } .tblog-side-nav-links:hover{ font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; color: #ffffff; width: 135px; text-decoration: none; background: #000000; padding: 3px; } h1 { color: black; font-family: Verdana; } a { color: black; } td { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; } body { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11 px; background: #eee url("bg-fill.gif"); } .tblog-content { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 22px; color: black; } .tblog-content-back { background: white; } .tblog-subject { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 12px; font-weight: bold; letter-spacing: 3px; color: #336699; background: #98C54B; } </style> <script language="JavaScript">  </script> </head> <body leftmargin="0" topmargin="0" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0" class="tblog-body" bgcolor="silver"> <table width="620" height="125" border="0" align="center" cellpadding="10" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td valign="top" bgcolor="#CCCCCC" class="tblog-all-border"><h1>My Blog Site</h1> <p class="tblog-content">by: <strong>username</strong></p></td> </tr> </table> <table width="620" border="0" align="center" cellpadding="10" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td width="135" valign="top" class="tblog-side-border"> <p><strong>Archives</strong><br> <a href="archive/2005/02/">2005 February</a><br /> <a href="archive/2005/01/">2005 January</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/12/">2004 December</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/11/">2004 November</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/10/">2004 October</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/09/">2004 September</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/08/">2004 August</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/07/">2004 July</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/06/">2004 June</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/05/">2004 May</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/04/">2004 April</a><br /> </p><strong>MyLinks</strong><br> <a href="http://tangoland.com/">Red Tango</a><br> <a href="http://www.bust.com">Bust</a><br> <a href="http://www.austincraftmafia.com/">Austin Craft Mafia!</a><br> <a href="http://www.shopodd.com">The cotton factory</a><br> <a href="http://www.palmercash.com">Palmer Cash Tees</a><br> <a href="http://">Favorite bands!!!!</a><br> <a href="http://www.thecure.com">The Cure!!!</a><br> <a href="http://www.bobschneidermusic.com/">Bob schneider</a><br> <a href="http://www.blacktiedynasty.com">Black Tie Dynasty</a><br> <a href="http://www.toriamos.com">Tori</a><br> <a href="http://www.fleetwoodmac.com/home.php">fleetwood mac</a><br> <a href="http://www.gypsytearoom.com">The Gypsy Tea Room</a><br> <a href="http://www.ebaumsworld.com/bangbangbang.shtml">Funny Link</a><br> <a href="http://">READS</a><br> <a href="http://www-personal.umich.edu/~jrcole/gibran/gibran1.htm">Juan Cole's Kahlil Gibran Page</a><br> <a href="http://www.rainn.org/">rainn</a><br> <a href="http://www.henriettapusykat.blogspot.com">My Old Blog</a><br> <a href="http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Cyprus/2253/Goddesses.html">Goddesses</a><br> <a href="http://www.heartless-bitches.com/">Heartless bitches</a><br> <a href="http://www.cafeshops.com/hillary1469">Massage Shop</a><br> <a href="http://www.massagewarehouse.com">massage warehouse</a><br> <a href="http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/sugirl06/my_photos">TIFF'S PIX</a><br> <a href="http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/henriettapusykat21/my_photos">My Pictures</a><br> <a href="http://www.lormusic.com">tiff's boyfriends band in FL.</a><br> <a href="http://www.elite-massage.us">Elite</a><br> <p align="left"><TBLOG_SIDE_NAV></p></p> <p> <div align="center"></div></p> </td> <td valign="top" class="tblog-content-back"> <table width="100%" border="0" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0"> <tr> <td class="tblog-content" valign="top"> <table width="100%" border="0" cellspacing="1" cellpadding="3"> <tr> <td class="subject"><strong>fist full of diamonds? Thanks!</strong></td> </tr> <tr> <td class="date">12.10.04 (11:47 am)</td> </tr> <tr> <td class="tblog-content"> <P>Feeling gross again...not cool. Not new, but still very uncool. I had a panic attack during my interview yesterday but hid it very well. The worst feeling in the world is when someone is droneing on and on about a boring subject in a monotone voice-and in your head everything starts to swirl together. Nothing makes any sence but you have to pretend that you care and understand what that person is saying. Your heart starts to race and your palms get sweaty, then your hands start to shake. You feel like you just want to scream and run as fast as you can-just get away-from everything and everyone. But i just sat there. Because I had to keep it under control. My baby's not doing very well, I miss him but he's freakin out. Its best to let him calm down for a few days- possibly another week. I just keep hoping that things will get better after christmas, Just keep telling myself that after christmas is over everything will be better and go back to life as ususal ( but hopefully better) I need to go to the doctor and get every test known to man run so that I can be normal, and that can't happen till after christmas. Stop working @ the mall... Have a normal sch. everyday- and focus on promoting massage ( now that I will have a table) Quit smoking, Join a gym so I can stop sleeping all the time and just feel better. Smoking is gross and sometimes painfull. which I am now finding out. If you don;t smoke- Dont ever start. thats my words of wisdom for today.</P><br><P> </P> </td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right" class="tblog-content"> </td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right"> </td> </tr> </table> <hr> <br> posted by: <b>sally429</b><br /> post date: <b>12.10.04 (12:47 pm)</b><br /><br /> I hope everything gets better for you soon! <br> <br> <form method="post" action=""> <a name="comment_anchor"></a><textarea name="cbody" rows="5" cols="30" style="width: 95%;"></textarea> <br /> <a name="last_comment"></a><input type="submit" name="submit_comment" value="Post Comment!"> </form> </td> </tr> </table></td> </td> </tr> </table> <br> </body> </html>