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I am so bored all the time- Thats no good!
Work was a lot of fun last night. I really like working with Dianne- Its really weird, but these past months I've met so many people from El Paso its retarded! ( Thats where dianne is from) It just strikes me as weird. She's really cool! She is 24, married and seems over all happy with everything. I wish I was like that. It get's lonely being sad, stressed, and scared of everything! That's how I feel right now. I wig out alot in my head. it's like "what if this happens" all the time in there. Im such a freak! I wanna move out on my own, get married and everything but how can I trust someone that much. I do alot of things I shouldn't because I am human- But wheres the trust? I don't have it. Then Why do I do things with him that you only do with people you trust? It's almost like I forget, then later I remember and make myself sick. I think you can love someone and not trust them. It's just too complicated. On to another subject-My little Marky is joining the army! I am so scared for him. This is someone who has major problems with authority figures and for that reason I am scared. I pray for you, babe! Love to all!
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