<style> cal-border { border: 1px solid #ffffff; } .tblog-all-border{ border-top: 9px solid #666666; border-right: 9px solid #666666; border-bottom: 9px solid #666666; border-left: 9px solid #666666; background: silver; } .tblog-side-border{ border-right: 9px solid #666666; border-bottom: 9px solid #666666; border-left: 9px solid #666666; background: #EEEEEE; } .tblog-side-nav-links{ font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; color: #000000; width: 135px; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-bottom-style: solid; border-left-style: none; border-bottom-color: #000000; text-decoration: none; padding: 3px; } .tblog-side-nav-links:hover{ font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; color: #ffffff; width: 135px; text-decoration: none; background: #000000; padding: 3px; } h1 { color: black; font-family: Verdana; } a { color: black; } td { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; } body { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11 px; background: #eee url("bg-fill.gif"); } .tblog-content { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 22px; color: black; } .tblog-content-back { background: white; } .tblog-subject { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 12px; font-weight: bold; letter-spacing: 3px; color: #336699; background: #98C54B; } </style> <script language="JavaScript">  </script> </head> <body leftmargin="0" topmargin="0" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0" class="tblog-body" bgcolor="silver"> <table width="620" height="125" border="0" align="center" cellpadding="10" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td valign="top" bgcolor="#CCCCCC" class="tblog-all-border"><h1>My Blog Site</h1> <p class="tblog-content">by: <strong>username</strong></p></td> </tr> </table> <table width="620" border="0" align="center" cellpadding="10" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td width="135" valign="top" class="tblog-side-border"> <p><strong>Archives</strong><br> <a href="archive/2005/02/">2005 February</a><br /> <a href="archive/2005/01/">2005 January</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/12/">2004 December</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/11/">2004 November</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/10/">2004 October</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/09/">2004 September</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/08/">2004 August</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/07/">2004 July</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/06/">2004 June</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/05/">2004 May</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/04/">2004 April</a><br /> </p><strong>MyLinks</strong><br> <a href="http://tangoland.com/">Red Tango</a><br> <a href="http://www.bust.com">Bust</a><br> <a href="http://www.austincraftmafia.com/">Austin Craft Mafia!</a><br> <a href="http://www.shopodd.com">The cotton factory</a><br> <a href="http://www.palmercash.com">Palmer Cash Tees</a><br> <a href="http://">Favorite bands!!!!</a><br> <a href="http://www.thecure.com">The Cure!!!</a><br> <a href="http://www.bobschneidermusic.com/">Bob schneider</a><br> <a href="http://www.blacktiedynasty.com">Black Tie Dynasty</a><br> <a href="http://www.toriamos.com">Tori</a><br> <a href="http://www.fleetwoodmac.com/home.php">fleetwood mac</a><br> <a href="http://www.gypsytearoom.com">The Gypsy Tea Room</a><br> <a href="http://www.ebaumsworld.com/bangbangbang.shtml">Funny Link</a><br> <a href="http://">READS</a><br> <a href="http://www-personal.umich.edu/~jrcole/gibran/gibran1.htm">Juan Cole's Kahlil Gibran Page</a><br> <a href="http://www.rainn.org/">rainn</a><br> <a href="http://www.henriettapusykat.blogspot.com">My Old Blog</a><br> <a href="http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Cyprus/2253/Goddesses.html">Goddesses</a><br> <a href="http://www.heartless-bitches.com/">Heartless bitches</a><br> <a href="http://www.cafeshops.com/hillary1469">Massage Shop</a><br> <a href="http://www.massagewarehouse.com">massage warehouse</a><br> <a href="http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/sugirl06/my_photos">TIFF'S PIX</a><br> <a href="http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/henriettapusykat21/my_photos">My Pictures</a><br> <a href="http://www.lormusic.com">tiff's boyfriends band in FL.</a><br> <a href="http://www.elite-massage.us">Elite</a><br> <p align="left"><TBLOG_SIDE_NAV></p></p> <p> <div align="center"></div></p> </td> <td valign="top" class="tblog-content-back"> <table width="100%" border="0" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0"> <tr> <td class="tblog-content" valign="top"> <table width="100%" border="0" cellspacing="1" cellpadding="3"> <tr> <td class="subject"><strong>screw it</strong></td> </tr> <tr> <td class="date">09.01.04 (3:49 pm)</td> </tr> <tr> <td class="tblog-content"> <P>okay, lots of things are different and thats good...very good. I am getting it together- new job and new ideas- lots of new ideas. To people I use to know... I may sound like a bitch- or off balance but its the opposite. I am taking care of my self- becoming balanced and helping others understand whats important. I can't be resonsible for other's lives, feelings, raw emotions. Its to much and being a true friend one needs to learn how to regulate their emotions and learn to be in control of how they feel. You need to know how to be responcible for your emotions- take care of your business- dont expect others to be there to pick you up everytime. everyone has their own problems and burdens to bare. if you want people to think of you as a friend and not as a time filler you need to know your emotional boundries and recognise the fact that the people you associate with want to have fun- thats why they stick around. Because they want company that takes their mind off the daily grind and all their other obligations. when you make yourself an obligation to others they tend to cut you out- its to much liability. No one wants to be pressured in to doing someting- Being flexible and understanding is a friend. Not overbearing and demanding.</P><br><P>new person in my life, whom i am falling so hard for its crazy-I never thought like this before. i love it and im very excited to see where it goes.</P><br><P>I probably wont be writing in here anymore because I am wanting my life to be more private. It's important to me to know who knows what about me and whos peeking around where. I think writing about other people in an online (web log ) is dumb because they are going to read what you write about them- Its just human. Its kool- its just not for me anymore and i do have alot to bitch/ talk about. but I wont do it here. I like my "simplified life" and wish to keep it this way. getting on a sch. is helping me accomplish so much- Im able to take control of my money and other things that were totally out of control in my life. I love it. I am planning on leaving in a few mo. signing a 6 mo. contract with a cruse ship- probably in feb. then coming home and getting an apartment for a few more mo. and then who knows???? Maybe marrage? HAHA- he's already talking about this possibility. Even though Im trying hard not to listen- I can see it happening in the next two years. its just ...when you know- you know. and there's that feeling. I want babies- BAD. we are both ready for growth and development in our lackluster lives and I know we would make each other very happy. Hopefully he feels the same. But I think he does.</P><br><P>I am very happy with all my decisions that I have made in the past two months- I don't regret any of them. Its about knowing what makes you happy and what cruds up your life. What brings you ultimate happyness and what stresses you out to know end. Then dumping everything you can dump that stresses you out- clean slate- to be happy and healthy. </P><br><P>My out look is much healthier, im happy, and im taking care of everything with ease. If you feel offended by this entry- im sorry but as others have said to me and as I have said to others...Take care of #1 at this point in your life (when you are a young adult) Your actions now can adversly effect your life later.</P><br><P> </P><br><P> </P> </td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right" class="tblog-content"> <a href="post/275107"><b>0</b> Comments</a> </td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right"> </td> </tr> </table> <form method="post" action=""> <a name="comment_anchor"></a><textarea name="cbody" rows="5" cols="30" style="width: 95%;"></textarea> <br /> <a name="last_comment"></a><input type="submit" name="submit_comment" value="Post Comment!"> </form> </td> </tr> </table></td> </td> </tr> </table> <br> </body> </html>