<style> cal-border { border: 1px solid #ffffff; } .tblog-all-border{ border-top: 9px solid #666666; border-right: 9px solid #666666; border-bottom: 9px solid #666666; border-left: 9px solid #666666; background: silver; } .tblog-side-border{ border-right: 9px solid #666666; border-bottom: 9px solid #666666; border-left: 9px solid #666666; background: #EEEEEE; } .tblog-side-nav-links{ font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; color: #000000; width: 135px; border-bottom-width: 1px; border-bottom-style: solid; border-left-style: none; border-bottom-color: #000000; text-decoration: none; padding: 3px; } .tblog-side-nav-links:hover{ font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; color: #ffffff; width: 135px; text-decoration: none; background: #000000; padding: 3px; } h1 { color: black; font-family: Verdana; } a { color: black; } td { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; } body { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11 px; background: #eee url("bg-fill.gif"); } .tblog-content { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 11px; line-height: 22px; color: black; } .tblog-content-back { background: white; } .tblog-subject { font-family: Verdana; font-size: 12px; font-weight: bold; letter-spacing: 3px; color: #336699; background: #98C54B; } </style> <script language="JavaScript">  </script> </head> <body leftmargin="0" topmargin="0" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0" class="tblog-body" bgcolor="silver"> <table width="620" height="125" border="0" align="center" cellpadding="10" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td valign="top" bgcolor="#CCCCCC" class="tblog-all-border"><h1>My Blog Site</h1> <p class="tblog-content">by: <strong>username</strong></p></td> </tr> </table> <table width="620" border="0" align="center" cellpadding="10" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td width="135" valign="top" class="tblog-side-border"> <p><strong>Archives</strong><br> <a href="archive/2005/02/">2005 February</a><br /> <a href="archive/2005/01/">2005 January</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/12/">2004 December</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/11/">2004 November</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/10/">2004 October</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/09/">2004 September</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/08/">2004 August</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/07/">2004 July</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/06/">2004 June</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/05/">2004 May</a><br /> <a href="archive/2004/04/">2004 April</a><br /> </p><strong>MyLinks</strong><br> <a href="http://tangoland.com/">Red Tango</a><br> <a href="http://www.bust.com">Bust</a><br> <a href="http://www.austincraftmafia.com/">Austin Craft Mafia!</a><br> <a href="http://www.shopodd.com">The cotton factory</a><br> <a href="http://www.palmercash.com">Palmer Cash Tees</a><br> <a href="http://">Favorite bands!!!!</a><br> <a href="http://www.thecure.com">The Cure!!!</a><br> <a href="http://www.bobschneidermusic.com/">Bob schneider</a><br> <a href="http://www.blacktiedynasty.com">Black Tie Dynasty</a><br> <a href="http://www.toriamos.com">Tori</a><br> <a href="http://www.fleetwoodmac.com/home.php">fleetwood mac</a><br> <a href="http://www.gypsytearoom.com">The Gypsy Tea Room</a><br> <a href="http://www.ebaumsworld.com/bangbangbang.shtml">Funny Link</a><br> <a href="http://">READS</a><br> <a href="http://www-personal.umich.edu/~jrcole/gibran/gibran1.htm">Juan Cole's Kahlil Gibran Page</a><br> <a href="http://www.rainn.org/">rainn</a><br> <a href="http://www.henriettapusykat.blogspot.com">My Old Blog</a><br> <a href="http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Cyprus/2253/Goddesses.html">Goddesses</a><br> <a href="http://www.heartless-bitches.com/">Heartless bitches</a><br> <a href="http://www.cafeshops.com/hillary1469">Massage Shop</a><br> <a href="http://www.massagewarehouse.com">massage warehouse</a><br> <a href="http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/sugirl06/my_photos">TIFF'S PIX</a><br> <a href="http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/henriettapusykat21/my_photos">My Pictures</a><br> <a href="http://www.lormusic.com">tiff's boyfriends band in FL.</a><br> <a href="http://www.elite-massage.us">Elite</a><br> <p align="left"><TBLOG_SIDE_NAV></p></p> <p> <div align="center"></div></p> </td> <td valign="top" class="tblog-content-back"> <table width="100%" border="0" cellspacing="0" cellpadding="0"> <tr> <td class="tblog-content" valign="top"> <table width="100%" border="0" cellspacing="1" cellpadding="3"> <tr> <td class="subject"><strong>merry chistmas...</strong></td> </tr> <tr> <td class="date">12.20.04 (9:20 am)</td> </tr> <tr> <td class="tblog-content"> <P># of cigarettes smoked in the last 2 days : 1/2 - GO ME!</P><br><P> </P><br><P>My grandparents are in town now! Ive been hanging out with them for the past few days. You know when you miss people so bad when they're not around and then when they are you wish you had time alone? I guess it's just human nature, never happy with what you have at the moment. Our little dog is having seisures and my mom is totally freaking out. She love this dog more than anything in the whole world ( sometimes I think she loves it more than me.) I think this is gonna be the begining of the end for coconut. Also cara's grandmother past away last night. Very Sad at my house today. Im taking a major break from every thing right now. Trying to get back to where I once was. Happy, care free, relaxed... Its alot harder than I thought it was going to be. I did just as the doctor told me and quit one of my jobs. (Aveda) Diane was totally cool about it and wants me to come up there and visit her, and go out for "drinks" haha in my case water... But I thought that was really sweet.</P><br><P>I begin training again on tuesday-tomarrow @ the body wrap shop and then start back up after christmas. I want to be super positive about this job... I can make lots of money here! its 40 hours per week @ 9.50 plus commission and every massage I do I get an extra 20.00 plus my tip. I think that would be KICK ASS- plus my other job on monday's and tuesday's. Hellooo financial security and my own apartment! I think if I can just convince myself of a few things than everything will be fabulose! I want to go see a hypnotherapist! Oddly enough I know one. I want to try it. </P><br><P>Im taking another class @ school on the 9th! Hot stone Massage! Im sooo excited! I also think Im gonna get a massage table 4 christmas... Im almost positive but not totally sure. that will be wonderful!</P><br><P>But the most wonderful thing of all is the reevaluation of a very unhappy person in my life. Someone I thought would be perfect for me, but turned out to be the worst possible match ever. I still love him. Like Ive said before, I beleive you can love someone you don't trust. You can still love some one and not like their actions. I pray for him and hope he finds what he's looking for. I hope he can one day understand that it's not having money and a nice car that makes you happy (it helps) but when you have no one to share your life with because you were to scared to take a real chance. something real- not just a possiblilty-like "maybe" an opportunity "might" come along. You can't live on maybes or mights-and neither can I. So I have decided to remove myself and all of my efforts to make things work with this perticular man so I can be open minded to all other "maybes" or "mights" that will turn in to something real. Will we still be friends- of course- but that will be the extent of our " relationship"</P><br><P>I know that everythings going to be better from now on.</P> </td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right" class="tblog-content"> <a href="post/365071"><b>0</b> Comments</a> </td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right"> </td> </tr> </table> <table width="100%" border="0" cellspacing="1" cellpadding="3"> <tr> <td class="subject"><strong>fist full of diamonds? Thanks!</strong></td> </tr> <tr> <td class="date">12.10.04 (11:47 am)</td> </tr> <tr> <td class="tblog-content"> <P>Feeling gross again...not cool. Not new, but still very uncool. I had a panic attack during my interview yesterday but hid it very well. The worst feeling in the world is when someone is droneing on and on about a boring subject in a monotone voice-and in your head everything starts to swirl together. Nothing makes any sence but you have to pretend that you care and understand what that person is saying. Your heart starts to race and your palms get sweaty, then your hands start to shake. You feel like you just want to scream and run as fast as you can-just get away-from everything and everyone. But i just sat there. Because I had to keep it under control. My baby's not doing very well, I miss him but he's freakin out. Its best to let him calm down for a few days- possibly another week. I just keep hoping that things will get better after christmas, Just keep telling myself that after christmas is over everything will be better and go back to life as ususal ( but hopefully better) I need to go to the doctor and get every test known to man run so that I can be normal, and that can't happen till after christmas. Stop working @ the mall... Have a normal sch. everyday- and focus on promoting massage ( now that I will have a table) Quit smoking, Join a gym so I can stop sleeping all the time and just feel better. Smoking is gross and sometimes painfull. which I am now finding out. If you don;t smoke- Dont ever start. thats my words of wisdom for today.</P><br><P> </P> </td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right" class="tblog-content"> <a href="post/358598"><b>1</b> Comments</a> </td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right"> </td> </tr> </table> <table width="100%" border="0" cellspacing="1" cellpadding="3"> <tr> <td class="subject"><strong>GOO!</strong></td> </tr> <tr> <td class="date">12.06.04 (8:58 am)</td> </tr> <tr> <td class="tblog-content"> Ive been sick and now im feeling much better- Haven't written in here in a long time! work sucks (as usual) But I love my managers! They are awesome. Tanz-n-handz is really slow, but ive got an interview for the body wrap shop in downtown dallas! On tuesday.Tuesday will be a very busy day! Interview, then TNH, and then Im working at presbyterian( spelling sucks) hospital. Chistmas is gonna blow because I can't afford to buy presents and pay my bills...What the F am I gonna do??? Major stress!Anyways, I hope everyone is having a great holiday season! Im making lots of New Years resolutions this year! It should be a blast- uh... yeah, My first one is to enjoy life (because I dont) </td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right" class="tblog-content"> <a href="post/355449"><b>0</b> Comments</a> </td> </tr> <tr> <td align="right"> </td> </tr> </table> </td> </tr> </table></td> </td> </tr> </table> <br> </body> </html>